June 13th about 10:30pm
6/14/2012 7:59:00 AM
I got the email I had been waiting for.
I haven't been writing about my journey and search lately. It was starting to become a little too real. It was like I was talking about a mythical figure, someone that didn't really exist. The past week has made it very real, real for me and real for my family.
I talked about riding up to a certain woman’s front door to ask, knowing full well that I wouldn't. I wanted to, I wanted to badly, but I knew that would go against the rules I had laid out for myself when I started this. Be Respectful.
Last Saturday I got an email from a woman that I had contacted, it was very simple and guarded. Basically, just saying that she had given up a baby boy for adoption. I got all excited This HAS to be her. I quickly emailed back, Sunday morning I got another email from her, Sunday night I sent an email, Sunday night I got another email from her. We have gone back and forth over the past few days.
Yesterday, I sent her an email with every detail I had from my birth certificate along with the words:
Take a deep breath.....let’s begin a journey..Shall we :)
I also included a photo of myself and a quick 1 page bio of my life.
Last night at 10pm I checked my email and had nothing. at 10:30 I decided to check it again, why, I don't know, I just did and that is when I saw it. Almost like a giant flashing light in the middle of a dark night. it was huge. Her email. The preview of it said.
Jim, Here goes, I hope you are sitting down.
I couldn't open my email fast enough! Once I got it open, everything in the world stopped as I read the next words.
I am your Mother
I wish I could sit here and tell you that bells started ringing, that choirs of Angels started singing, but it wasn't like that at all. It was wow. I was somewhat underwhelming. Weird, Strange would be better words to describe it.
I sat in bed and just stared at the email for the longest time. I then started to think...Where does this go from here?
I can't believe how many people have read my story, It has meant a lot to me. it has been great to be able to share this part of my journey with you. But now it is getting real and I kinda want to keep this part to myself. I will do some quick updates if there is something significant to write about. Now I close this chapter of my life knowing who my mother is. I am so grateful to her for the opportunity she gave me. Today she exists and is not a figment of my imagination.